Sometimes, I wonder what life would be like without me. Sometimes, I wonder if I really am not deserving of being loved. Tonight is the night when I feel this way. I really want to cry and express my feelings, but everytime I do so, the words just come out wrongly. 

I wonder if you love me. If you do, then why didn't you stay? I know that I was the one who asked for a break but, cant you see that I need you? I want to prove myself that I can quit cutting because of you but now, what's the point in doing so?

Should I just leave this world?